December 1, 2006

You did so well with last week’s question, I’ll ask another. Given the choice, would you develop your personal life or your professional life? I don’t know why I’m asking you when I really want to know what I should do.

Fuzzy lines between my personal identity and my professional job description complicate my ability to answer this question. Many of you have supported my personal journey that has brought better understanding and greater acceptance in my life.

Many of you have listened to me talk about the rewards I’ve found in sharpening my role and refocusing time and energy to better utilize my gifts. I clearly appreciate that my life is much more rewarding when I’m going somewhere.

I’m a list maker – so several lists reside on my computer as I weigh advantages and disadvantages. I’m talking with friends and family who are giving valuable insights. I’m praying for clarity. Signs and fleeces don’t have a strong history in my experience.
Am I anxious in the midst of indecision? No. I’d like the decisions to be finalized though. Am I frightened? Yes. But I think I figured out that my fear was originating out of fallacies I’ve habitually told myself. So I’ll just choose to scrap those lies and the fear is gone (OK, it’s not quite that easy, but I’ve still made the choice)

I do know that whatever decision I end up living with, I will value authenticity, excellence and relationship. I want these to be more than just words for me. I want them more than professional practice. They need to be personal.

“I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will give you mighty inner strength through his Holy Spirit.” Ephesians 3:16

Be at peace,
Pastor Steve